Posts Tagged ‘awake’

crazy ladies in my dreams

Ok im awake WIDE awake in fact because i had another dream, not nightmare just dream where sleeping was not the main story…i dont usually have such vivid dreams but since i moved to Berlin its like they wont bloody stop. I wonder what it is…the excitement, the change of scenery, visual stimulation, my butch landlords comfy as hell bed ¬†or the massive pillows that seem to be the norm at every place i stay at over here…whatever it is its kinda staring to pee me off somewhat, why cant i dream of lying on a beach lazing in the tropical sun whilst unicorns graze on the dolly mixture sprinkled brown sugar sand, or how about floating on a fluffy cotton candy cloud all snug and asleep whilst 20 yr old male gucci models hover like cupids firing stars over head? No i have to dream of crazy ladies, well their not like banshee crazy just very intent ladies like in the Aphex Twin screaming at the old woman after crawling out of the telly kind of intensity. What is up with this? Ok im going back into to dream land, bitches beware i have cotton wool in my ears!

cant sleep wont sleep

Ok lying in bed wide awake at 4 in the morning for the umpteenth time, i have decided to blog myself to sleep seeing as the 2 prescribed sleeping tablets have done NOTHING except make me yawn but what in the hell to say apart from ‘I WANNA GO TO SLEEP’. How can it be that i feel tired, am yawning my eyes hurt to have them open and yet lying for 3 hours in the dark has not sent me to dreamland. I’ve counted sheep (983), deep breathed, tried meditation techniques blah blah blah blah IM STILL AWAKE! Now im thinking about Freddy Kruger, not entirely sure how he popped into my head but im aware it is not going to help with the whole falling asleep thing…..its sooooo annoying cause im not even anxious or worrying about anything so why the hell wont my brain just let me fall asleep. Could my sleeping pills have been spiked with caffeine? Are they in fact not sleeping pills and just a….dam whats that word….you know the one they call the drug in a drug trial which isnt actually a drug? I dunno but anyway you get my point….is there a disease thats the opposite of narcolepsy? if so i think its a fair to say i most definitely have it! If theres not im offering myself up for research, please someone help me get to sleep!